parent teacher conferences.

today was HECTIC at work... the kids have half days of school monday through wednesday this week and then no school thursday and friday for parent teacher conferences and then fall break so we're offering extended CARE hours and all day CARE on thursday friday, not so lovely for my sanity but oh so lovely for my bank account!
anyway today the kiddos we're going INSANE and i was trying to figure out an activity to do with them to keep them entertained.... and that activity turned out to be fully body outlining (remember when you would lie down on butcher paper and your teacher would trace your body and you got to color it in and stuff) anyway it started out with 5 kids... ok i could handle tracing 5 kids, then it turned into 20. Seriously tracing 20 kids.... and keeping an eye on the non tracers who decide that its super fun to run around with sissors telling other kids to "come look at MINE!!"
oh. man.
then when i was at the preschool with audrey (the special needs girl that i'm there to support) she decides that she wants to play the game that she plays with her dad (where she hits him on the head and he falls on the floor in fake pain) with me.... oh no ma'am that game does not fly with me so when she didn't like the result of me not falling just signing stop she decided that pinching would be the best way to achieve the fall on the floor in fake aganoy, seriously mom time to trim the girls nails.... i have bruises from this tiny little twirp who just learned how to walk on her own.

anyway the day is over and in two weeks from friday i will have a wonderfully large paycheck to put towards the seattle trip. POSTIVE THINKING.

love.

watching batman is the same as

avoiding packing and cleaning, and all things related to departing this wonderful wonderful place I've come to call home over the past 4 years. I really do need to get started. Maybe if I had a really cool suitcase I'd have more incentive to put things in it.




Instead I'm sitting on the couch rewriting the words to 'leavin' on a jet plane' with claire and sara
"None of my bags are packed
I'm not ready to go
I'm sitting here- on our living room floor
I'd hate to get up- and bid this place goodbye
But the job market sucks
and its cocktail time..."
Then it got sucky so we stopped until we got to the part where it goes...
"So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause Im leavin' in a ford escape
I know Ill be back again"
Then we got weepy and had to stop and started watching our batman marathon again.

tuesday

I will have a real grown up interview.
For a real grown up job.

I'm terrified.

positive vibes

i'm in need of some positive vibes out in the universe...
two potential nanny positions in Seattle...lets hope i get one!!

excited for

finally posting resume and cover letter on the bill and melinda gates foundation website
cheesy tv watching with a girlie tonight
dip devouring tonight
a saturday filled with rosemary grapefruit martinis and fireworks on a deck with some lovely lookin ladies
nice roommates
a clean car
a fridge filled with diet coke and classy beer
a new pink american apparel sweatshirt
a new episode of life on the d list with kathy griffin tonight
a new outlook on job hunting

mixed emotions

well i'm gunna put my interpersonal relationship classes (yes that's plural! i took two this quarter) to good use and label the emotions that are going through my head right now.
anxious of the whole no job situation
impatient for Friday
optimistic in search for non profit employment
(in) awe of things my friends are doing (ie growing babies, venturing to new countries, tackling their battles, living, enjoying, cherishing, and embracing life and love and still surviving college!!
interest for Saturdays events
scared of the unknown
a zest for life
nervous for how my family will act
antsy about my capstone paper
pride for my friends and whats coming up next for them
longing for a new crush
gloomy that tomorrow is my last day with the tob-ster.
terrified of whats next
mirth at seeing the Teachman drive around in his astrovan
excited for adventures
amusement at what dinner with Richardson was like
thrilled of no more deadlines (for now)

grateful that i have 5 stable friendships that will always be there whenever i need them.

...

enough.




enough now.

sun spot

I'm sitting on the porch right now enjoying the last of the summer sun, relaxing and listening to the new G.C.H album... which by the way rocks my world, petting the neighborhood cat patches. I registered for classes this morning and am realizing how quickly these past 3 years have come and gone. This is the last of the 4... then its time to hit the real world... no more sitting on the porch reading at 2 in the afternoon on a Thursday still in sweats with no desire to do anything else... but this.

I'm going to enjoy it while I still can.