watching batman is the same as

avoiding packing and cleaning, and all things related to departing this wonderful wonderful place I've come to call home over the past 4 years. I really do need to get started. Maybe if I had a really cool suitcase I'd have more incentive to put things in it.




Instead I'm sitting on the couch rewriting the words to 'leavin' on a jet plane' with claire and sara
"None of my bags are packed
I'm not ready to go
I'm sitting here- on our living room floor
I'd hate to get up- and bid this place goodbye
But the job market sucks
and its cocktail time..."
Then it got sucky so we stopped until we got to the part where it goes...
"So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause Im leavin' in a ford escape
I know Ill be back again"
Then we got weepy and had to stop and started watching our batman marathon again.

the question and the answer

So the question that has been on my mind since before I graduated college, since before I had my last year as a student, finally has an answer. I will be moving back to Tucson at the end of August. I've accepted this. There are no tears as this post is written, its not the end of Seattle and Washington, Its just a fly over. You know when you're on a plane trip and there is a storm where you're supposed to be arriving, well my storm is this recession, my plane is now being deferred back to the always sunny skies of Tucson Arizona. It would beyond stupid for me not to take the situation that was presented to me yesterday.
I will have a full time job, benefits, and vacation time, something that is very rare in this struggling economy. Not to mention that paying rent, and bills would not be hanging on my shoulders, something that I am not yet ready (as much as I'd like to say over and over that I am) I will be able to save lots and be able to leave blank checks made out to my ever supporting parents on the kitchen counter and be able to get those text messages calling me silly and unnecessary, and knowing that I'm not silly because I'm a 21 year old adult who needs to be helping. I will be able to bug my older brother, who will now if he doesn't answer my phone calls expect an arrival on his front steps from his frustrated younger sister. I will be able to bake, and cook all these recipes that I long to make knowing that my mom has all the absurd ingredients that they call for. I will be able to see my puppy, who I have been pushing out of my mind because I miss him so dearly. I will be able to finally see all these so called changes that my mom has made to the house. Ever time I talk to her she tells me that she has been on the phone with a new contractor so so&so is coming to the house, and see what she refuses to tell me what she's done.

I will miss Washington and its so very special residents with all of my heart, but I know that I will be back, and this stupid fly-over is not going to last, I will make it back to my destination.
Love,
Me.

summer.

"Here's to the nights where the sand is your seat,
The waves kiss your feet,
your friends outnumber the stars,
& even the chilliest of nights
are still warmer,
than the cold one in your hand."

excited for

finally posting resume and cover letter on the bill and melinda gates foundation website
cheesy tv watching with a girlie tonight
dip devouring tonight
a saturday filled with rosemary grapefruit martinis and fireworks on a deck with some lovely lookin ladies
nice roommates
a clean car
a fridge filled with diet coke and classy beer
a new pink american apparel sweatshirt
a new episode of life on the d list with kathy griffin tonight
a new outlook on job hunting

today

I officially finished college.
I took my last ever scan-tron test and started at question number 1 and before filling in bubble number 50... i paused, pencil poised on top of the paper, and I contemplated what college has been like for me these past four years. I've changed. Not a doubt in my mind that I've changed... but thats what college is supposed to be like. I've found out things that I really don't like about my self but I am striving to change them, I've found out things that I love about myself and I hope and pray that those things will stay with me for years on end. I've met so many different types of people that have opened my eyes to different lifestyles and upbringings that people have experienced that make people either drastically different or radically the same as I am, yet still we all are still each and everyone of us, an individual. I've met people that I know are not the types of people that I want to have in my life, and people that I want to forever be in my life. I've seen traits in people that I really despise and others that I want someday have in my life. I"ve learned life lessons that I'd never think I'd have to know. I've seen people go through things that i hope I never have to go through. I've thought about the arugments that I had with peopel which either solidified what I believed in, or opened my mind once again to new things, ideas, beliefs, and views. Those arguments which at one point I hated, I now realize has taught me the most during my time here. I thanked God for the friends I've gained, for the lessons that He's taught me through the people that I've lost, for the family that He has blessed me with, and for the life that He's allowed me to create for myself.
And with that final thought I pressed my pencil down on the final bubble and darkened in the last circle of my four years at college, relishing in what a blessing it was.

thanks

for the adventures

for the laughs
for the college experience
for the support
for the love
for the memories
for the future

belli bar crawl

this was a very very successful night.

got a phone number
got news of a job opening at a place where a bffworks
gave a phone number
flirted lots
bar crawled it
went to royal upstairs
had a sociological discussion with a boy at a bar
realized he was trying to justify paying for world of warcraft.
walked home.
left my soon to be new roomie on the couch with a boy she like
got a promise for breakfast out tomorrow morning.
watching wimbelton
putting clothes on hangers
decided tomorrow is a nothing day (other than filling out a job app)

because the unknown is a mear 30 days away...

I figured a Grey's Anatomy quote would sum up my new perspective on the future pretty well...

"We spend our whole lives worrying about the future
planning for the future
trying to predict the future - as if figuring it out will cushion the blow.
But the future is always changing.
The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes.
But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself.
The future is never the way we imagined it."

for now all I can hope for is an amazing first (and hopefully not last) summer in the place that I have called my home for the past 4 years.

A summer where hopefully by the end of I will have read some amazing books, learned more about life and love, enjoyed the pacific northwest at a time where I've heard it is at its most beautiful, and maybe (if the mood strikes me) point myself in the slight direction as to where I'm headed in life.

I know for now that this friends of the children organization that I applied to is something that I want to pursue and if I don't get it with them I am going to try and find another organization that does the same essential goal, and hopefully there will be more of them around.
But for now... I am excited for the next 3 months that are ahead of me... of my family visiting the places and people that I have come to love, of graduating, a pure Washington summer, of the unknown.

i love your enthausium

after an lord of the rings marathon this is what comes out of it...
1. gandolf the white is much more of a bad ass than gandolf the grey JUST because his robes changed to white
2. its middle earth, they HAD soap
3. if they didn't have soap the fuckin' wizards could have just conjured it
4. talking trees are ridiculously rad
5. oarks have jacked up faces cause they're born out of mud
6. golumn is a lil bitch
7. they messed up like 20 million towns all for a fuckin ring
8. frodo is a whiney lil bitch

spring

in honor of the new season i've decided to change the blog layout and add a new post

So it was officially the first weekend of spring... well spring started already but it was the first weekend that actually felt like sping with the sun shining all weekend... and it was pretty wonderful. it included 0 a bonfire 0 saturday market 0 gyro 0 park day 0 strawberry guava mangoie margaritas 0 poach sitting 0 sublime singing 0 apartment craigslisting 0 reading at woods on Sunday morning 0 appetizer dinner

it was a pretty wonderful first weekend of the quarter... so wonderful infact that i may have forgotten to read an article or two and am now suffering the consequences of trying to read on a sunday night

I'm ready for this

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and here's a teaser list of what will be sung aloud with the radio
katy perry: hot n' cold
taylor swift: love story
Don McLean: American Pie
all american rejects: mona lisa
steve miller band: joker
john butler: used to get high
Danity Kane: Show Stopper
matt nathanson: come on get higher
augustana: sweet and low
all american rejects: gives you hell
train: get to me
T Pain & Baby Bash: Cyclone
GCH: cookie jar
fall out boy: grand theft autumn
Ludacris ft. Pharrell: money maker
Maroon 5: infatuation
GCH: all of As Cruel As School Children
Usher ft Young Jeezy: Love in this club

thankful

I'm thankful for the amazing friends that i have, and for the families that they have that invite me to stay with them and invade their family holiday.
i have bomb friends. bomb.

crispy glazed crunchy sweet

Jack Kerouac said it best.

"The only people for me are the mad ones. The ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved. Desirous of everything and at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a common place thing."

i love my mad to be anything friends.

people- places- things

amazing places.







amazing people.







amazing things.