yippie for TRUE AUTUMN WEATHER!!

is Washington bound in a few days!
So excited to be back in weather where people aren't decked out in skiing gear once the thermometer hits 60!!

watching batman is the same as

avoiding packing and cleaning, and all things related to departing this wonderful wonderful place I've come to call home over the past 4 years. I really do need to get started. Maybe if I had a really cool suitcase I'd have more incentive to put things in it.




Instead I'm sitting on the couch rewriting the words to 'leavin' on a jet plane' with claire and sara
"None of my bags are packed
I'm not ready to go
I'm sitting here- on our living room floor
I'd hate to get up- and bid this place goodbye
But the job market sucks
and its cocktail time..."
Then it got sucky so we stopped until we got to the part where it goes...
"So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause Im leavin' in a ford escape
I know Ill be back again"
Then we got weepy and had to stop and started watching our batman marathon again.

excited for

finally posting resume and cover letter on the bill and melinda gates foundation website
cheesy tv watching with a girlie tonight
dip devouring tonight
a saturday filled with rosemary grapefruit martinis and fireworks on a deck with some lovely lookin ladies
nice roommates
a clean car
a fridge filled with diet coke and classy beer
a new pink american apparel sweatshirt
a new episode of life on the d list with kathy griffin tonight
a new outlook on job hunting

mixed emotions

well i'm gunna put my interpersonal relationship classes (yes that's plural! i took two this quarter) to good use and label the emotions that are going through my head right now.
anxious of the whole no job situation
impatient for Friday
optimistic in search for non profit employment
(in) awe of things my friends are doing (ie growing babies, venturing to new countries, tackling their battles, living, enjoying, cherishing, and embracing life and love and still surviving college!!
interest for Saturdays events
scared of the unknown
a zest for life
nervous for how my family will act
antsy about my capstone paper
pride for my friends and whats coming up next for them
longing for a new crush
gloomy that tomorrow is my last day with the tob-ster.
terrified of whats next
mirth at seeing the Teachman drive around in his astrovan
excited for adventures
amusement at what dinner with Richardson was like
thrilled of no more deadlines (for now)

grateful that i have 5 stable friendships that will always be there whenever i need them.

i did.


we'll see what happens.

to text or not to text.

thats the real question.

countdown

11 days till fam.
12 days till not having a plan.
13 days till crusin'.
20 days till i have to create a plan.

7 + 9

16 days till the fam.

belli bar crawl

this was a very very successful night.

got a phone number
got news of a job opening at a place where a bffworks
gave a phone number
flirted lots
bar crawled it
went to royal upstairs
had a sociological discussion with a boy at a bar
realized he was trying to justify paying for world of warcraft.
walked home.
left my soon to be new roomie on the couch with a boy she like
got a promise for breakfast out tomorrow morning.
watching wimbelton
putting clothes on hangers
decided tomorrow is a nothing day (other than filling out a job app)

because the unknown is a mear 30 days away...

I figured a Grey's Anatomy quote would sum up my new perspective on the future pretty well...

"We spend our whole lives worrying about the future
planning for the future
trying to predict the future - as if figuring it out will cushion the blow.
But the future is always changing.
The future is the home of our deepest fears and wildest hopes.
But one thing is certain when it finally reveals itself.
The future is never the way we imagined it."

for now all I can hope for is an amazing first (and hopefully not last) summer in the place that I have called my home for the past 4 years.

A summer where hopefully by the end of I will have read some amazing books, learned more about life and love, enjoyed the pacific northwest at a time where I've heard it is at its most beautiful, and maybe (if the mood strikes me) point myself in the slight direction as to where I'm headed in life.

I know for now that this friends of the children organization that I applied to is something that I want to pursue and if I don't get it with them I am going to try and find another organization that does the same essential goal, and hopefully there will be more of them around.
But for now... I am excited for the next 3 months that are ahead of me... of my family visiting the places and people that I have come to love, of graduating, a pure Washington summer, of the unknown.

new crushes

I love the feeling that you get when you have a new crush. It's very very enjoyable.

Monsooning

Arizonan monsoon's do something.
They wipe out all the dust, dirt, debris on the streets and wipe them clean. They erase the heat from the air and let you breath again. Its like the thunder scars away all the negative thoughts, feelings... stuff... that's in the air and you can breath again.
From June 15, Every afternoon, without fail, you look at the mountains looking to see if those big, dark, luxurious looking clouds come rolling over the peaks, you just know. fresh start. If you had a bad morning, well don't worry about it cause around 3 when you see those clouds start rolling in you know, just know, that your day is going to change. Not start over, but give you a chance to take a breath and relax. For those 25 minutes that the rain is spilling from the sky and the winds are wiping out all the smells from the day, and the thunder is clearing the sky, and the lightning is lighting the sky to let you know that the day isn't over yet and then, its clean.
You can start to tackle the day again.
Clear air. Fresh air.
I want to smell the fresh start.

modern technology

one of the benefits of having a young president is that he ok's really cool things like THIS something that we would have never caught a glimpse of before with the other old geezers but with him we're allowed to enter into that world and experience what he's doing and how he's doing it!! I think that it's pretty amazing if i do say so myself. So thanks mr. pres for allowing me a glimpse into your world that i would not have seen until pictures were printed in a TIMES photo book in a few years!

paper hearts

a must see faux documentary that my heart flutter.

summertime and the livin's easy

after a delicious cup of homemade lemonade at the market yesterday i was stung by the summer drink bug, today i made rosemary lemonade.
wonderful. That started without use of a recipe which means that after i made it, i was curious as to what the ratios that other summer drink makers used where i found website after website of drinks that is my new goal for the summer to make
tomorrow or the next free day that i get, i have decided to make peach ginger iced tea, and i'm very very excited about it!!

my next step is to get a cute pitcher to house these wonderful drinks that I plan on enjoying from now until summer fades away.



my inspiration.

spring

in honor of the new season i've decided to change the blog layout and add a new post

So it was officially the first weekend of spring... well spring started already but it was the first weekend that actually felt like sping with the sun shining all weekend... and it was pretty wonderful. it included 0 a bonfire 0 saturday market 0 gyro 0 park day 0 strawberry guava mangoie margaritas 0 poach sitting 0 sublime singing 0 apartment craigslisting 0 reading at woods on Sunday morning 0 appetizer dinner

it was a pretty wonderful first weekend of the quarter... so wonderful infact that i may have forgotten to read an article or two and am now suffering the consequences of trying to read on a sunday night

I'm ready for this

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and here's a teaser list of what will be sung aloud with the radio
katy perry: hot n' cold
taylor swift: love story
Don McLean: American Pie
all american rejects: mona lisa
steve miller band: joker
john butler: used to get high
Danity Kane: Show Stopper
matt nathanson: come on get higher
augustana: sweet and low
all american rejects: gives you hell
train: get to me
T Pain & Baby Bash: Cyclone
GCH: cookie jar
fall out boy: grand theft autumn
Ludacris ft. Pharrell: money maker
Maroon 5: infatuation
GCH: all of As Cruel As School Children
Usher ft Young Jeezy: Love in this club

...

enough.




enough now.

its a plan.

bed buddies date for Friday.

shit.

im pretty much head over heels right now.

not good.