excited for

finally posting resume and cover letter on the bill and melinda gates foundation website
cheesy tv watching with a girlie tonight
dip devouring tonight
a saturday filled with rosemary grapefruit martinis and fireworks on a deck with some lovely lookin ladies
nice roommates
a clean car
a fridge filled with diet coke and classy beer
a new pink american apparel sweatshirt
a new episode of life on the d list with kathy griffin tonight
a new outlook on job hunting

Dips.

No not the exercise (from which i now have a giant bump / bruise on my leg... thanks theo.) but the food.
I love dips. Not only are they mostly creamy and oh-so-tasty but you get to eat them with bread and cracker and uncooked veggies!! some of my favorite things!
And i have now discovered my new favorite food blogger (for the moment) because he has created my ultimate bad for you but oh so tasty frozen food appetizer and made it into a dip... jalapeno popper dip to be exact. I think i may be in love. Then after lusting over this recipe he has a click to try other recipes you may like and can you guess what those were?? MORE DIPS!! Hot spinach and artichoke dip, Hot sweet onion dip, not to mention the Baked brie with sundried tomatoes, and the baked brie with cranberry chutney! oh how my heart now belongs to the nerdy looking boy named kevin from Canada.

I propose a day devoted to dips.

today

I officially finished college.
I took my last ever scan-tron test and started at question number 1 and before filling in bubble number 50... i paused, pencil poised on top of the paper, and I contemplated what college has been like for me these past four years. I've changed. Not a doubt in my mind that I've changed... but thats what college is supposed to be like. I've found out things that I really don't like about my self but I am striving to change them, I've found out things that I love about myself and I hope and pray that those things will stay with me for years on end. I've met so many different types of people that have opened my eyes to different lifestyles and upbringings that people have experienced that make people either drastically different or radically the same as I am, yet still we all are still each and everyone of us, an individual. I've met people that I know are not the types of people that I want to have in my life, and people that I want to forever be in my life. I've seen traits in people that I really despise and others that I want someday have in my life. I"ve learned life lessons that I'd never think I'd have to know. I've seen people go through things that i hope I never have to go through. I've thought about the arugments that I had with peopel which either solidified what I believed in, or opened my mind once again to new things, ideas, beliefs, and views. Those arguments which at one point I hated, I now realize has taught me the most during my time here. I thanked God for the friends I've gained, for the lessons that He's taught me through the people that I've lost, for the family that He has blessed me with, and for the life that He's allowed me to create for myself.
And with that final thought I pressed my pencil down on the final bubble and darkened in the last circle of my four years at college, relishing in what a blessing it was.

mixed emotions

well i'm gunna put my interpersonal relationship classes (yes that's plural! i took two this quarter) to good use and label the emotions that are going through my head right now.
anxious of the whole no job situation
impatient for Friday
optimistic in search for non profit employment
(in) awe of things my friends are doing (ie growing babies, venturing to new countries, tackling their battles, living, enjoying, cherishing, and embracing life and love and still surviving college!!
interest for Saturdays events
scared of the unknown
a zest for life
nervous for how my family will act
antsy about my capstone paper
pride for my friends and whats coming up next for them
longing for a new crush
gloomy that tomorrow is my last day with the tob-ster.
terrified of whats next
mirth at seeing the Teachman drive around in his astrovan
excited for adventures
amusement at what dinner with Richardson was like
thrilled of no more deadlines (for now)

grateful that i have 5 stable friendships that will always be there whenever i need them.

thanks

for the adventures

for the laughs
for the college experience
for the support
for the love
for the memories
for the future

i did.


we'll see what happens.

to text or not to text.

thats the real question.

countdown

11 days till fam.
12 days till not having a plan.
13 days till crusin'.
20 days till i have to create a plan.