all the things that i miss dearly in this season named fall

changing leaves,
the crunch crunch crunch sound when you walk
scarves and sweatshirts
bundling
soups
apple cider (both hot and cold)

pumpkins
boots
gathering in living rooms watching new seasons of favorite shows
apple cranberry bread
the clear crisp cold air
new classes school supplies etc (I'm sure i will not be missing this one as time goes on)

one week (plus a day) anniversary

As of today it is officially a week and a day since i made the drive down to mi casa arizona. And as a memory of this anniversary here are some pictures that were taken on the last few nights in belli and the drive down.

































As of today it is officially a week and a day since i made the drive down to mi casa arizona. And as a memory of this anniversary here are some pictures that were taken on the last night in belli and the drive down.

watching batman is the same as

avoiding packing and cleaning, and all things related to departing this wonderful wonderful place I've come to call home over the past 4 years. I really do need to get started. Maybe if I had a really cool suitcase I'd have more incentive to put things in it.




Instead I'm sitting on the couch rewriting the words to 'leavin' on a jet plane' with claire and sara
"None of my bags are packed
I'm not ready to go
I'm sitting here- on our living room floor
I'd hate to get up- and bid this place goodbye
But the job market sucks
and its cocktail time..."
Then it got sucky so we stopped until we got to the part where it goes...
"So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause Im leavin' in a ford escape
I know Ill be back again"
Then we got weepy and had to stop and started watching our batman marathon again.

the question and the answer

So the question that has been on my mind since before I graduated college, since before I had my last year as a student, finally has an answer. I will be moving back to Tucson at the end of August. I've accepted this. There are no tears as this post is written, its not the end of Seattle and Washington, Its just a fly over. You know when you're on a plane trip and there is a storm where you're supposed to be arriving, well my storm is this recession, my plane is now being deferred back to the always sunny skies of Tucson Arizona. It would beyond stupid for me not to take the situation that was presented to me yesterday.
I will have a full time job, benefits, and vacation time, something that is very rare in this struggling economy. Not to mention that paying rent, and bills would not be hanging on my shoulders, something that I am not yet ready (as much as I'd like to say over and over that I am) I will be able to save lots and be able to leave blank checks made out to my ever supporting parents on the kitchen counter and be able to get those text messages calling me silly and unnecessary, and knowing that I'm not silly because I'm a 21 year old adult who needs to be helping. I will be able to bug my older brother, who will now if he doesn't answer my phone calls expect an arrival on his front steps from his frustrated younger sister. I will be able to bake, and cook all these recipes that I long to make knowing that my mom has all the absurd ingredients that they call for. I will be able to see my puppy, who I have been pushing out of my mind because I miss him so dearly. I will be able to finally see all these so called changes that my mom has made to the house. Ever time I talk to her she tells me that she has been on the phone with a new contractor so so&so is coming to the house, and see what she refuses to tell me what she's done.

I will miss Washington and its so very special residents with all of my heart, but I know that I will be back, and this stupid fly-over is not going to last, I will make it back to my destination.
Love,
Me.

tuesday

I will have a real grown up interview.
For a real grown up job.

I'm terrified.

in the midst of a frenzy

i've read over 80 recipes and could not settle on what to make... until i came across these two lil heart breaking, stomach growling recipes... and since i could not decide on one of them, and did not have the urge to spend $20 on a bottle of booze that i wouldn't drink again... I mixed the two together... and threw in some left over vodka from a flask, and this is what I got...

summer.

"Here's to the nights where the sand is your seat,
The waves kiss your feet,
your friends outnumber the stars,
& even the chilliest of nights
are still warmer,
than the cold one in your hand."